The Journey: Reframing Adversity – Turning Life Challenges into Life Change

You never know what you are capable of until you live through the toughest time in your life. Dealing with adversity can make or break you – it all depends on how you deal with it.

Five years ago, I had to navigate the most difficult and transformational period of my life. Within just five months, I became unexpectedly (but joyously) pregnant with twins; my husband of 12 years left me over my decision to keep the twins and started a very unexpected and nasty divorce proceeding. I was placed on hospitalized bedrest for six weeks trying to stay pregnant and, ultimately, contracted a blood infection and delivered the twins by emergency c-section when they were just 25-weeks young. Weighing just 1 lb. 12 oz. each, they spent four months and 18 months in the Intensive Care Unit, respectively. During this same timeframe, I lost both of my grandmothers, who I was closer to than my own mother and I had to make the difficult decision to put the dog who had been with me for 14 years to sleep.

Just when I believed I couldn’t handle another thing, something else happened. If one more person said to me, “God doesn’t give you more than you can handle,” I was going to smack them! During the worst of it, I was sad, distracted, frustrated, angry, afraid and completely confused. I blamed myself (and others) for all that happened to me. I lost my appetite, lost weight, couldn’t sleep, and nearly lost my mind thinking of the “what ifs” of my life. Doing the most basic necessities of life like taking my two older kids to school took enormous effort at the beginning of my journey. Many times, just finding the strength to get out of bed in the morning was a chore.

What most people don’t realize is that your mind plays tricks on you. Its only job is protection and survival. Most of the stories we tell ourselves about adverse situations are created by our mind to protect us from our reality. My mind was no different.

It wove a very elaborate story to protect me from my reality, which was that I was a woman who was going through a divorce, with two children at home and two babies in the hospital. Quite simply, that was my reality. The story my mind created went something like this: “You are a woman who wasn’t good enough for your husband, so he left you. You aren’t a good mom to the two kids you have now and that’s why he didn’t want to have any more kids. Your life will be devastated if you get divorced so you should do all you can, even if it doesn’t serve you, to stay married. Your kids at home will be permanently scarred emotionally from this experience so protect them from all things and coddle them as much as possible. There’s a good chance that your two babies in the hospital will die any day so you should just sit around and wait for that to happen. And by the way, if they do live, you’ll be alone forever because who would want you with four kids? How will you ever support yourself? Everyone has left you, even your dog.”

And on and on and on…

I lived from that story for a time. I soaked in it like a bath and I was sad and scared but comfortable in my adversity, just as my mind had intended me to be. There came a time when I was sitting at the kitchen table staring into the nothingness in front of me, completely caught up in my own emotional decay. I hadn’t heard my older daughter come in, but I could feel her staring at me. I turned and met her gaze, the tears beginning to form in her eyes. I realized that she was waiting for me to fall apart – just as the rest of her life seemingly had done. In the silence between us, she pleaded with me to hold it together because that was the only way that she could find the courage to believe in the simple possibility of a better tomorrow.

It was in that one moment, a split-second of clarity, that I made a decision to rewrite my story of adversity and replace it with a more empowering one – for my own sake and for the sake of my children. It took a tremendous amount of reflection and honesty to acknowledge those things that I could not control and those that I could. In fact, I also had to acknowledge that most of the events that were causing me such pain were events that I’d created myself. I’d unknowingly created the darkness in my life as an opportunity to redefine who I was and how I was living my life. I’d created the darkness so that I could find my light.

In the light of my darkness, I was able to see the adversity of my life with new perspective. I was able to identify the real truth of each situation. The truth was that I was in an unhealthy, emotionally abusive, unsupportive marriage. The only positive outcome of that marriage remains my four gorgeous children. Because of that relationship, I am now able to identify unhealthy relationships early on and run from them as quickly as possible.

The truth of my premature twins was that of all the wombs in the world, they chose mine because there was a universal imperative for me to walk my journey differently. Only they could have shown me that. Thank goodness they came when they did and as they did! The truth of my grandmothers’ passing was that it took the passing of two extraordinary souls to welcome two news ones into my life. My grandmothers taught me all they needed to and left this world with the knowledge that I embodied all of the good that they were and was working toward the potential that they’d always seen in me. I would continue to carry the beacon of light for my family and step into the role that they left behind.

There was even a truth to be learned in euthanizing my dog, Queen. She was in pain. I had to carry her up and down the stairs because her hips were useless. She lost control of her bladder function and was going blind. I believe that Queen knew that I couldn’t possibly take care of her, my twins in the hospital and my two kids at home. I was keeping her alive for purely selfish reasons. I should have let her go sooner so that she could leave this world with a sense of dignity and peace in knowing that she’d been a faithful, loving companion for 14 years.

In every case of adversity, I was able to let go of the judgment of the situation, and, in doing so, I released the pain. So many people have asked me how I got through it all and how they can do the same. I developed an acronym for my approach to dealing with challenges – P.E.A.C.E. F.I.R.S.T. It says simply that my peace comes first. I cannot make sound decisions; help myself or anyone else without a sense of balance and calm in my life.

What does P.E.A.C.E. F.I.R.S.T. stand for?

P: The power of intention is greater than any current reality. What do you ultimately want? Your focus on that will ease the challenges that you are currently facing.
E: Everything is energy. The universe gives you whatever you say and focus on. Are you placing your energy on those things you want or those things you don’t want? In either case, you’ll get them.
A: All things will move into balance eventually. It’s the natural order of things.
C: Caring for yourself precedes caring for anyone else. There is a reason why the flight attendant tells you to put your oxygen mask on first. Help yourself and then you can help everyone else. And manage anything else.
E: Everything is exactly as the Universe intended it to be. Accept your current situation without judgment so that you can release the pain of it more quickly.

F: Find the truth of your situation. As difficult as it might be, there is a lesson in each event.
I: Insight and self-awareness are the path to transforming challenges into change. Take the time to reflect.
R: Recognize what you can control and what you cannot. Remember that you can only change yourself.
S: Step back and make a plan. What is your vision for the situation? What is the very next step (and only the next step) that you need to take to reach your vision? What resources do you have? What resources do you need? Who is in your life that can help you? Who do you need to find? The plan you create leads directly to the final step.
T: Take action! You are either growing or dying. There is no in between. Which do you choose?

I still have adversity in my life. And I know that I always will. So will you. Life will never go exactly as planned. Practice P.E.A.C.E. F.I.R.S.T. when faced with any challenge. And remember that in the times of your greatest trials, you may find your biggest triumph. Every aspect of my life is a testimony to that opportunity.

Want more lessons from Tami’s journey? Check out her book, Preemie Parents: 26 Ways to Grow With Your Premature Baby dedicated to helping other parents of premature babies learn to cope — as she has — by opening their hearts to learning life’s lessons or visit www.PreemieParents.com and www.LifeIsTheLesson.com.

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About Tami Gaines
Tami C. Gaines, has an MBA from Columbia University and is a nationally recognized author, entrepreneur, inspirational speaker and trainer. After going through the seemingly unthinkable several years ago, Tami committed to using her life experiences to show others how to find their light in their darkest moments. A single mother of four children (including premature twins born at just 25 weeks), Tami is an advocate for parents of premature babies. Tami’s first book, Preemie Parents: 26 Ways to Grow With Your Premature Baby helps other parents of premature babies learn to cope -- as she has -- by opening their hearts to learning life’s lessons. For more information and inspiration, visit www.PreemieParents.com and www.LifeIsTheLesson.com.

  • http://loveyourmessbook.com Allison Nazarian

    Tami, thank you for sharing your absolutely amazing story of inspiration, real life and true strength.

  • http://twitter.com/Timberry Tim Berry

    Thanks for this. A very powerful story, well told, and an important reminder to all.

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  • http://wowisme.net/ Adryenn Ashley

    An amazing story and  such a perspective shift! Thanks!

  • http://adversityflip.com Bob Wilson

    Tami – wow, you’ve been through a lot!  Thanks so much for sharing your story so openly.  Very heartfelt and inspiring.  I’m always amazed at how that “aha” moment seems to appear when we all have a choice to reframe things or not.  Kudos to you for recognizing it and for sharing your story…
    Best regards,
    Bob Wilson

  • Laura Babcock

    Tami, you are an inspiration to many of us, on many levels.   Thank you for being you…and for sharing as you do, so willingly and freely.  Blessings to you and your four beautiful children. 

  • http://www.itsawahmlife.com Jackie Lee

    What an inspiring story. I love your PEACE FIRST… it is a fantastic way to look at things. I’d love to have it in poster form to hang on my wall… have you thought of creating one?

  • Debbie

    I am typing with tears. This could have been my story. So similar to my own.Thank you for this beautiful, heartfelt and challenging post. I too, have been through such a journey and have recently been trying to decide which parts to write about. Thank you for the inspiration! PS…A poster is a brilliant idea! I’d buy one!

  • http://www.facebook.com/ngolinsky Natasha Golinsky

    Tami this was such a powerful post. Thank you for modelling such great leadership!

  • Tess

    I found your words today, not by accident, but because the universe navigated them to me.  Thank You ,  You have no idea how much I needed to read this.  I will share this mantra with myself and others.

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